Do you know what Wednesday is?

So, I'm going to try really hard to update this more often. Brianna's going to be starting a blog too since she leaves for camp tomorrow. I'll post her link in here too in case anyone is interested! But I realize that this is a commitment I made to myself and to everyone else and I need to work harder when it comes to updating. I also think I am going to stop updating as much about day to day events and more about how I'm feeling and what I'm learning. Otherwise, you guys are going to be super bored.

On Saturday Kyo, Esther (communications person at LiNK) and I went to Sarang Church in Anaheim to self merch at a screening of the documentary 1040. It's about Christianity and New Asia. So--going to the screening was SO obnoxious. The only redeeming part of it was that I felt as though it opened my eyes to something I had yet to. They discussed the Great Comission and how they believe missionaries must spread the worst of Christ to those who have yet to hear it.

As everyone knows, I consider myself an agnostic. I have no idea what I believe in and don't have a strong faith in anything except being good to others. But, watching this film made me realize that I really need to educate myself about religion. Not just Christianity but Islam and Judaism and Budhism and whatever else. Because I do plan to work in nonprofits, and I hope to live my life fighting social injustices and human rights issues, I think these are important things to have a better understanding of. But in addition to the interpersonal relations it will improve, I think it has the chance of teaching me a lot about myself and others. So, I'm going to try and read the Bible this summer. Then the Koran and some parts of the Torah since most of it is covered in the New Testement. I think when Jason Ma said he things the second-coming of Jesus is bound to happen during our generation (not saying he's right...) I realized this was something I needed to learn about. Why be ignorant to religion when it helps to define so many people and is the cause of great love and great conflict and other such things? I'm not sure if I'm making sense. But I hope you guys understand what I am saying, at least somewhat.

Also, this summer I want to work on my journaling. Not just my blog (sorry) but my real journal too! Writing is such a good way of looking inside yourself and I feel like I often ignore my own emotions and doubts and beliefs and stuff. But I'm realizing other people my age dont just ignore themselves and justify it by saying "oh i'm young, who cares." Really, I have so many goals for myself this summer. Some I can share, other's I am not even sure of yet.

But okay -- enough emotion and insight for now. I'm going to go help Lindsay do her hair, make cookies and watch The Hills. We had a long day at the office, it's time for relaxing!

(today i was reminded why i hate being away from my family -- i also want to help. it kills me to know i am nowhere close to my grandpa while he wont eat and is saying crazy things. i need someone to help him, and im almost positive me being there would make no difference. it breaks my heart. but okay, time to be positive! and make cookies.)